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2012 Project365 (Day 78)

Mother's DayMothering Sunday is one of those days that brings massive mixed emotions for me.

I love my Mum so much and she has been the amazing support to me over the years. I am very grateful to her for all the she does for me and all that she is to me. Without her I would be so much poorer (not just financially!) and it is so nice to be living with her again!

However, Mothering Sunday also makes me feel really sad. I thought I would be a Mum by now and yet it hasn’t happened. Mother’s Day just serves to remind me of the fact that I feel like a failure and I am devastated that I am not a Mum, and don’t know whether I will ever manage to become a Mum. I decided not to go to church today because I just couldn’t face it. Too many reminders of the things I don’t have. Sometimes it is just too painful.

Today’s picture is of my Mum and me nephew Barnabas. They are reading the book that he gave to Mum as a Mother’s Day present. I hope, more than anything, that one day she will be a Grandma to my children too.

Oh, and a massive hello to my mother-in-law Beryl (I know she reads my blog!). We miss you and love you too! Happy Mother’s Day.